Hi, my name is Amy. If you are hiding from your feelings after an abortion, there is hope, healing and people who understand those feelings. I am here to listen and let you know you are not alone.
I grew up in a family that loved me and spent time with me. I have not been abused by my family or anyone else. I would say I was just a normal kid.
When I was seventeen I was in my first real relationship – at least it felt real to me. I got pregnant and was so scared. I spoke with my mom, she spoke with his mom and it was decided that I would have an abortion. I don’t remember any other option ever being discussed. When I told my boyfriend; I don’t recall him saying anything one way or the other; we did not speak again.
I remember going in the abortion clinic, talking to the people, but not much about the procedure. I know I left feeling sad and in pain. I got on the pill and lived as if nothing had ever happened.
Since then I have been married, divorced, and now married to my amazing husband. We have a blended family of three daughters, one son, and a son (my abortion) and daughter (our miscarriage) in heaven.
After 24 years of keeping my abortion a secret and hiding from being judged, I wanted to help others make a choice for life. I was encouraged to go through my own healing first. I was sure that I was O.K. but I was not. I can finally see how much my abortion had hurt me and what I had really done. I was able to heal and forgive myself and all the people involved.
I am no longer ashamed of who I am. My family has supported me and all my children still love me. Jesus found me when I was not looking and changed me for eternity. He gave me purpose, life and hope. He gave me His life and covered my sin. For the last several years I have been public about my abortion, a desire to help and bring light to others who are hurting.
The bible verse that has help me is Colossians 1:21-23: “And you, who once were alienated and enemies in your mind by wicked works yet now He (Jesus) has reconciled in the body of His flesh through death, to present you holy, blameless, and above reproach in His (God’s) sight – if indeed you continue in the faith, grounded and steadfast, and are not moved away from the gospel which you heard”. He died to present you holy, blameless and above reproach in His sight as well!!