I was born to a couple who dearly loved God and served as international missionaries. I accepted Christ into my heart at the age of six. Even though I grew up in the church, my perception of God was not of a loving Father but more of a judge. When I found myself pregnant in March of 1982, I was scared, ashamed and alone. I had only known the father of the baby for two months and I felt sure he would abandon me. The only option I thought I had was abortion. I couldn’t face the shame I knew this would cause for my family, so in April I drove myself to the Planned Parenthood Clinic. What happened that day became my secret-a secret I planned to take to the grave. I felt relieved and blocked the whole event from my mind-so I thought.
Twenty-five years later I filled out an application to volunteer at the Pregnancy Help Center. The lie continued when I answered “no” to the question: “Have you ever had an abortion”. During the volunteer training, I heard testimonies from two women who had an abortion. This was the first time I had ever heard anyone talk candidly about their abortion experience. These women had received God’s forgiveness and had forgiven themselves. The joy and peace on their faces was unmistakable and I wanted that same joy and peace.
In April 2008, I completed a post abortion bible study and then attended Rachel’s Vineyard in 2010. I did not know how much my abortion had affected my life. For 26 years I suffered with depression, feelings of unworthiness, anger, difficulty with relationships and fear that God would punish me.
The God I now know is the God of love, mercy and grace. His forgiveness and healing in my life has ignited a passion in me to help anyone that has struggled with the effects of abortion. I now serve at the Pregnancy Help Center, have facilitated several Forgiven and Set Free Bible studies and continue to serve on Rachel’s Vineyard Retreats as a team member.
Cami is married, facilitates abortion recovery groups and serves as a team member on Rachel’s Vineyard Retreats. Cami also serves as staff on the International Helpline for Abortion Recovery and Prevention.